Guruji dispelled my anxiety disorder

नानक चिंता मत करो, चिंता थिस ही हे,

जल में जनत उपायन, थीना भी रोजी धैय ..

Very true indeed, when we have our Guruji Maharaj taking care of us then we have absolutely no reason to be anxious about anything. Hundreds and thousands of joys are enjoyed if the True Guru grants His Glance of Grace upon us.

In 2014, With Maharaj's blessings, I moved to Boston and started working for a company. I was staying alone at that time and slowly started experiencing symptoms of anxiety. As a result of which my sleep pattern was severely disturbed and often left me vexed. It came to a point when I would dread about the time when I had to go back to the apartment in the evening. I started searching for excuses to stay at my office till late hours and often I used to be the last person to leave the office. I also started working on Saturdays so that I did not have to spend time at home by myself.

I cannot explain the severeness of this disorder that when I would reach home in the evening I would sometimes start crying but I did not know why I was crying and my heart would start beating at a very fast pace. At that time, I had not started talking to Guruji Maharaj like I do now but I did my daily morning puja in front of Guruji's swaroop which is placed on a table next to my bed.

Anyhow, over the time, precisely between 2014 and 2017, my problems grew larger and I started feeling anxious over small things all the time. For example, I would get extremely anxious if any coworker or friend or a family member missed my call and took a long time to return my call. I started hating any kind of change in my life and just wanted to have the same routine every single day. I did not even turn off the lights of my room at night. I had even started thinking of getting medical advice for this condition.

Slowly, I started making efforts to attend Guruji's satsangs in my city and Guruji also started providing me all kinds of help for doing the same. That was the only time when my mind was at peace - at Guruji's satsangs and I really started looking forward to attending these satsangs. My connection with Guruji Maharaj strengthened each time I attended a satsang. Our dear Guruji Maharaj would always arrange a ride for me so that I can attend these satsangs. One night, in November 2017, Guruji blessed me with His Divine Darshan in my dream and cured my anxiety disorder.

I saw that about five or six men dressed in black from head to toe are trying to break into my apartment through the main door. After breaking in, they were trying to enter my bedroom. In my dream, I saw that I am extremely scared and no one is there to help me. Then I cried for help and remembered Guruji Maharaj. In my dream, I saw that I turned my face towards the left side of the bed and looked at Guruji's swaroop placed on the table. As soon as I had turned I saw that Guruji had come outside of the Swaroop and was sitting in the exact same throne as in the swaroop! He then turned His face to look at me with His beautiful heavenly smile. As soon as He smiled these men dressed in black ran away from my apartment and all of a sudden the night turned into a sunny day with a lot of bright light entering my room. Even today when I think about that moment when Guruji looked and smiled at me I get goosebumps as this dream is still very vivid in my memory.

Guruji Maharaj made me realize that those men dressed in black were my anxieties and He made them go away in the coming months of my life. Sangatji, this dream was a turning point for me and Guruji slowly dispelled my anxieties. I started attending more and more satsangs with His Blessings and started feeling better and more importantly happier than I had ever experienced before! It's not that I never get anxious anymore but Guruji has taught me how to peacefully deal with such situations by holding His Divine Hand. And once we hold His hand, He leads the way into the most beautiful path ever!

Anantam Shukrana Guruji Maharaj.